Artwork by Kyla Mangsat
I wonder what you’re doing here. Maybe it’s the title? Maybe you just wanted to click on it? Or maybe you’re not sure yet?
Right now, we are a bunch of flesh-tight zombies maneuvering a world of distant apocalypses. Uncertainty clings to the air as we wake up every day. You are still here though. You are still here pulling your head from the dragging heaven of the comfort of your blankets. It’s getting tiring – running around in circles, chasing an invisible end. Still, we are expected to think of an endpoint all the time. You have to do this, you have to do that, pass this, submit that. We are all trying to pin little endpoints every day, only for it to pile up for…? I’m not even sure what we’re doing it for.
It will start to feel pointless like flailing arms reaching for stability, but I want you to keep going. Keep going as you ride through the confusion of the planned yet unpromised tomorrows. Keep going, and even befriend that question mark hovering around your head. Keep going even if no human knows when this earth-wide sheet of sickness will finish its course. Keep going until you feel the need to stop, and take that stop. Replace your wheels, change your paths if you must, but keep going once your tank is filled, and your engine hums accordingly to your heartbeat. No one really knows. The next sunrise never left a promise to return, and these days, we feel the curves of the endless circle even more, but keep going. No one really knows if all of this will conjugate to something – but it will. Trust me. You will want to see it.